Notes For A Novel By Joni Jones - Get Used To Dissapointment

yesterday was the worst day of my life.

it started out like any other day.. i have the kids here and they were loud (as usual), i was sneaking in some Christopher time between cartoons and fixing lunches, etc.

and then the mail ran.

so i go check the mail and i see i have a letter from the British embassy. i had a gut feeling something was wrong because the envelope seemed too big and it turns out i'm right. they sent my application back with a little note saying it's "incomplete". they also sent a "First Time Applicant" with everything i needed highlighted . i was immidiately depressed. it also seems that the price of a passport had changed on June 21 (i sent mine off on the 20th) and went into effect July 1st. so instead of $125 it's $144. that's pretty much all i see i missed. they also want my parent's marriage certificate.. my mom says she doesnt have it and that they got married at a little chapel in Nigra Falls. my dad isnt of sound mind so i cant even ask him about it. AND they're divorced so what the hell do i do? we think it's mainly the money that's the problem but i dont know if i want to be rejected a second time if it isnt. it's driving me crazy. but sending it off again is better than the second option which is apply for citizenship in Sweden. anyone (like me) who doesnt know the process of applying citizenship to another country there's a whole interview you have to do if you're getting married etc
and then there's this gem:

Please note once your application has been submitted to the Consulate General you are not allowed to enter Sweden until a decision has been made.

which means even if we did rush and get married. i'd still have to come back here and wait on a decision based on my application. and i cant even go back until i get a decision. how long you ask?

An estimated time of 6-8 months is usually required to process your application.

all this information i got from here: Consulate General of Sweden.

reading all of this made me cry and if the kids werent here, i'd have crawled in my bed and had a good sob about everything. it just doesnt seem fair, you know? i've only been away from him two months and i'm already falling apart - how will i ever wait a whole year? i dont know what to do. he's talking to his mom about it and we're going to try to put our heads together on this.

on to happier things.

my nephews came on Friday afternoon all smiles. my sister wanted to hang out with one of her best friends so i stupidly go "sure i can handle them both!" and my sister was grateful, the their food in the fridge and got out of here before the last word was out my mouth.
the oldest boy will be two on the 30th. last year i threw a party for him and it was great.. i wonder what i can do for him this year?my sister has already said that she was just going to have a party at her house so my only stress is what to get a two year old. maybe a leap pad. i love those things personally adn they do come at different levels. so anyway we watched cartoons, crawled around and had lunch.. just having a grand old time when the baby's mouth started hurting.
he's teething. luckily my sister had some chewies and numbing medicine in the bag and we took care of that but he was still crying. and he didnt stop until he cried himself to sleep. meanwhile Jesse is talking up a storm and he wants something but i dont know what it is. i dont know if it's something to eat drink or other as he pulled me to the kitchen and pointed but i wasnt picking the right thing

so his face gets all screwed up and he starts to cry. geeze.
and then my other sister calls

and she hears the boys are there and decides to bring over Annie so she could play with Jesse while i tend to the baby (she makes it sound so easy doesnt she?) and i agree. she says she'll bring her Saturday morning. i look over and the big boy has cried himself to sleep too.
Saturday morning, bright and early Miss Anne comes up in her pyjamas. both nephews are happy to see cousin and they start playing. you know, three kids in a house and they're all under five is a lot of work. i did nothing but run around, kept them from jumpping off the furniure, refused them candy and made them time out when someone got a bit too rough or someone just started cryibng for no reason other than they're tired. i am exausted and am very glad that everyone's going home today so that i can be in peace and quiet once more. last night everyone wanted to sleep in the bed with auntie.except for the baby who had his playpen. my bed IS big enough for the three of us to sleep comfortably.. even though it's a small bed. but they're small kids. seriously it was like sleeping with a litter of puppies . they wriggled, squirmed layed over me, over each other.. they're just bad sleepers the both of them and to add to that i had to sleep in pyjamas, something i havent done since i was 16 AND it was hot as hell in here. but i made it even if i am a little tired and the kids are still asleep so i have a little time to myself this morning before everyone gets hungry. come on parents, weekend's over!

i didnt get to get the Harry Potter book yesterday and that makes me sad. there was no way i was putting three kids on the bus and besides, i am broke. but i guess it's okay in a way. i can imagine how crowded and how frazzled the workers were yesterday. whoo Pottermania!!!

i'm not sure what i'm going to do today but you can believe it wont be exciting. mostly i think i'll be busy with trying to either get a passport or get citizenship
bleh.